THE DEEP POOL - MARCH 2003

How many faces in the deep pool? - faces of those lost and those loved and lost, like the faces that David Thomas talks of on my new record? Last night i dreamed that David had a huge European hit that Ted, and old dustman friend of mine told me about in a Birmingham suburb, whilst i tried to rejoin a ferry that would take me to Iceland to play in a women's prison. I used to be in a men's group that constantly analysed its dreams from a Jungian perspective - after a few years i couldn't take it any more, and then i remembered my friend the American thinker James Hillman saying 'don't say that the black snake in your dream is really your mother - it's insulting to the snake, and may harm his real purpose, and thereby you, by being thus dismissed'.

So now i just wonder what song David would have had the hit with. In the dream i was depressed about David having a hit - not thru jealousy but because i was afraid of losing his friendship. And so it seemed to prove - he came out of a happy dancing crowd to greet and kiss my girlfriend, but seemed to ignore me - although i couldn't quite tell if this was the correct interpretation of events. Interpreting events in a dream whilst still IN the dream! - no wonder islam thinks we're decadent. My letter is short this month because i'm running out of time to make my plane to Oslo, so i'll write again in mid month - Paul, send me an email reminding me to do so. i learned a long time ago that you can never win by losing your temper with airline officials when things go wrong - i had to remember this hard when returning from Vienna last week - my flight was cancelled after we sat on the runway for three hours, then the next one was cancelled because the same plane was still fucked...it took me 13 hours to get home on my one day off between tours - the deep pool - the faces you can nearly make out as the ripples change everything again and again.....................

jl